This is my annual ritual. A year in song.
A place, reserved for the biggest hits in my mind.. in my heart this year.
Instead of ranking them, I've decided to do it in chronological order..
So here goes.
Swedish House Mafia - Don't You Worry Child (feat. John Martin)
The Swedish House Mafia came to Singapore as part of their final tour in January.. and I knew I had to go. And what better way to hype up for a gig than to listen to their mix continuously right? This was their last single, and it stuck in my head. I never knew the effect it would have on me.. for I adopted the chorus "don't you worry child, see heaven's got a plan for you" later in the year, when I was feeling down. Later on, this was a track in SH'BAM and I was just so thrilled by that fact.
I don't know how many times I've cried to this track - SHM's gig, Avicii's gig in June, the LM Q3 workshop... I still get goosebumps listening to it.
I'm going to miss the Swedish House Mafia.
Zedd - Clarity (feat. Foxes)
Some time around February, I started to listen to Zedd in anticipation of his work with Lady Gaga. And I got to listening his album Clarity. I'm really glad I did, because I loved it.. and got to learn of his awesomeness. I liked Clarity before it was popular k.. haha. None of the lyrics really make sense.. but it feels good, and thats what Zedd's music does to me - it gets me to punching my fist in the air and yelling and singing. This song in particular.
Ayumi Hamasaki - song 4 u A Japanese song! I can never get why Japanese music videos are still not Youtube friendly. In any case, this was off Ayu's most recent album.. and I loved it. Ayu writes pretty nice lyrics.. not exactly profound but very relatable. 選ばないだけなら
ないよね. If you don't make a choice, there'll be no anxiety, but it also means that nothing will change. Calvin Harris - I Need Your Love (feat. Ellie Goulding)
I was in love. Or so I thought. And this was the song that resonated in my head then. I need your love. I need your time. When everything's wrong. You make it right.
...there probably was love in there somewhere, but maybe it was a form of attachment I hadn't begun to understand. It was the first time in.. years.. that I'd fallen for anyone like that. Profoundly enlightening to me to know that my heart wasn't dead... and yet bittersweet because, your heart can only get hurt if you open it to love. And so it was.
Lana Del Rey - Summertime Sadness
I used to scoff at Lana Del Rey for making what I like to call suicide pop. Emo music for already depressed people. Why would people indulge in that? I thought to myself... and then I found myself liking her music. It seems you only need the right mood for it to happen. This was after my.. meltdown. Perfect timing - it was summer. Note: I was hooked on the original version, but right now I think even thats too depressing for me now, so here's the awesome Cedric Gervais mix.
P!nk - Just Give Me A Reason (feat. Nate Ruess)
I've never been much of a Pink fan.. but I loved this one. It doesn't resonate with me for any particular reason. I just think its a really good song.. and its so fun to belt along to alone in the car. The thing is, I don't know if its a good thing if I can relate to such a song or not. Based on the people around me at the time who could, I'm gonna say no.
Rihanna - What Now
What now? I just can't figure it out.
I suppose if this phase in my year was what you'd call the post-meltdown, then this was the theme song. There comes a point where you don't know what to feel.. because you don't exactly know what you should be feeling anymore. But time doesn't wait for you to figure it out.. you gotta keep moving forward.
will.i.am - #thatPOWER feat. Justin Bieber
And in moving forward, it seemed that my focus was simply to feel alive again. And so this song aptly came back to me, amongst other carpe diem songs. (specifically Feel This Moment / Live It Up) I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive.
Oh, this track is also in SH'BAM 14.. and is one of my two fave tracks from the release.
Lady Gaga - Do What U Want (feat. R Kelly)
Gaga's opus ARTPOP released late in the year. It's an excellent dancepop record really.. extremely catchy and all, but it has very little to cling on emotionally. Even so, I loved it. I know what the album speaks for - knowing what you are deep down.. even though on the surface everything is something else entirely. You can't have my heart and you won't use my mind, but do what you want with my body.
The body is merely the facade. The veil. The aura. Not everyone gets to see what lies behind.
..and that brings me to the one right now.
Calvin Harris & Alesso - Under Control (feat. Hurts)
Waiting for the fire to light Feeling like we could do right Be the one that makes tonight 'Cause freedom is a lonely road We're Under Control